Seriously.....food may just be the death of me. I spend so much dang time focused on food! What to eat, what not to eat, blah, blah, blah! It makes me CRAZY!!! There is SO MUCH focus on health these days (which is GOOD), but all these fad diet crazes are non sense! If they actually worked long term then more people would be doing them. If they weren't just a marketing ploy like 90 % of everything else in the world is, they wouldn't cost so much dang money! There is no miracle, easy weight loss trick out there.
But I don't buy into those. Nope, I'm not a sucker! But I DO try to maintain a healthy diet. I recently discovered "whole foods". Hmmm....sounds good. What's this? It's food that's from the Earth. Food God gave us. Food that our great grandmothers would recognize! So yeah, I can do this. There is a whole slew of food that is considered whole. All the good for you stuff that you're supposed to eat anyways. Fruits, veggies, meats, whole wheat everything! It's doable, really. Except for when that time comes. Ladies, ya feel me?! That's when I get as angry as a caged wild beast. Why? Because I want PIZZA! I want CHOCOLATE! I want NACHOS (oh dear nachos, how I love you!) Then it becomes a battle of the will. Open the fridge. No! Shut it. NOW! A little bit of something "unwhole" isn't gonna kill me. Or is it?! No, of course it's not. It never has before. But I am getting older, so maybe I better keep to good eating, just in case.
I'm done arguing with myself. It's time to bring in another person. My terrified husband tries to avoid eye contact with me, but I get him. I go on and on about how I'm so hungry for yummy deliciousness but yet I'm scared I'll "hurt my insides" (LOL!!!) but I just wanna eat and right now vegetables aren't cutting it. I complain about how I used to be able to inhale all kinds of food and not gain an ounce, but how now it's the total opposite. I tell him how he doesn't know the struggle of being a girl because we care about our appearances and there's so much pressure to keep them up.
His response? A shocking one. He says eat and be happy. Eat what I want and just keep up with the exercising I've been doing. As long as I don't become a blob stuck to the couch I'll be fine, so I just need to enjoy myself. Why is it shocking? Because his response proved he was actually listening to me :) So now, whenever I start arguing with myself, I remember what he said. Of course it doesn't change anything, because I'm who I am, and I'm gonna keep battling myself ;)
